Tuesday, September 28, 2010

The Rut...

Flooded dug-out in front line trenchImage by National Library of Scotland via Flickr

This rut I find myself entrenched in... is absolutely brutal... I  try to collect my thoughts, but so far it has been to no avail. There have been thousands of what-ifs and moments of realization that ultimately lead to nothing... Have I been here for a day, month, years even?? Depends on when and where.. As the rut feeling is neither fleeting nor long holding.. Its staying power is both impressive.. and brief.. Its impact is both temporary and long lasting.. Its power can be extremely useful and totally destructive if allowed.. So analyze your next spell.. See how you handle it.. How you recover.. And if the rut can tell you what you need to hear...

Its like fighting a war with the world.. and yourself... I know I'm not the only person on the planet that feels this way from time to time... A true manic swing.. the yin and the yang.. The opposing forces of the mind.. Awesome isn't it? I wrote this awhile back.. Figured I'd conjure it back up.. See if the temporary lapse of gloom and doom had any real relevance.. And of course.. Even out of the most pessimistic views.. Comes optimism.. Everyone has both..  The layers of a person reveal themselves with time.. With that being said..

The test of time is shitty. Everything falls back into the same old pessimistic point of view I started with. As with everything in this world, upon close inspection I too am flawed, simply put we are all damaged goods. I can’t really think of a huge upside to this. Nothing more than the simple thought that we are all in this state together, on one level or another.

Some of us just accept life as it is. Others do not. I’m obviously with the last category. There are a ton of reasons to use for my current situation. None will justify my cause. I refuse to become one of those people who blame my current state on external factors. I am who I am simply because I’ve chosen to do what I have done. It’s that simple and true.

Now how does one right the proverbial ship? That’s a good question. There is no good answer though. Some will say to listen to your heart. Some will say just wait, time will tell. Others will say pray for the answer. In short, you will hear a lot of “answers” but nothing that will help you immediately. Just like any advice, it must be taken with a grain of salt.

I’m a firm believer in the fact that you know yourself better than anyone. I say this simply because people have a tendency to become chameleons around certain people, situations, environments, etc. So the only person who truly knows the way you operate is yourself. So what makes you happy? What are your motivators? How do you achieve the balance you’re looking for? Your guess is as good as mine…

There is no reset button on this life. No do-overs. What I mean by this is that you can change yourself, your location, and those that surround you, but you’re still you. You can make changes, but the rudimentary essence of you will as always be there.

So it’s never as simple as you hope. If the right piece falls into place in your puzzle you’ve been dealt a great favor. For some it happens and others it won’t. Until then you have to keep your head afloat, keep treading water, and keep fighting the tide until you find your way.

I know many people won’t agree with that statement. That’s their right. I’m actually tired of trying. If you do what you’ve always been told to do, it still won’t be enough. It all plays out on chance. All a person can really do is be prepared for when the time is right. When opportunity comes knocking, be prepared to jump. Or maybe life will just push you there. Who knows? This shit rarely makes sense. People are a fickle breed who tend to be trendy, greedy, and believe it or not self-centered. Are we really any different?

So you can play along, suck up and accept your current role. Wait for that “big break”. I prefer a different approach. Keep going at it. One thing is certain; I’ll either make it or go insane along the way. The great thing about going insane though is that you never know you have gone mad.

As always... Knock Hard... Life is Deaf...
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Take It Off

That defense mechanism.. That shield that protects you from acting out.. The rules that keep you overly cautious.. Take it off.. That shroud of doubt you have yourself cloaked in.. Find yourself in a hole downtown.. in the corner of your mind.. on the net.. wherever.. whenever you feel..

This kid says it best...

Now that you've seen his example.. I shall explain my point..

We all have a tendency to play the devil's advocate... To put up a false front.. It's human nature.. and most of the time.. its a necessity.. We bite our lip.. hold our tongue.. When really want to say something.. Appearances matter.. Your views matter.. Well pretty much everything you do can be held for or against you..

But what about you.. Your individuality? Your point of view? You thoughts? We place ourselves in cages.. Our own little prisons.. not all the time.. but from time to time.. I'm sure you can rattle off countless reasons for why... At the same time you know what you miss.. It's different for each person.. It's part of growing up.. This is true.. And you don't lose yourself over night..

It happens to the best of us... All of us.. But as the kid above clearly points out.. It doesn't have to be that way.. You can still do whatever you want to do...

Life is a rat race at best.. Some people actually believe they have all the answers.. Truth is.. Nobody does.. It's the risk, rewards, and chance that make life as interesting as it is... But to be clear.. You dictate your circumstances over the long haul.. The road to redemption, happiness, self destruction, etc.. Is all up to you.. It' your spin on everything..

I keep talking about drive.. The need to be driven.. And look.. to be honest.. I get burnt out just like everyone else.. But that doesn't make it acceptable to stop.. But that's what makes a person's character that much more profound.. The will to keep pressing forward..

I've had a interesting last couple of months.. To say the very least.. And I know so many others have as well.. But those that keep pushing onward continue to grow.. And those that stall out.. stagnate.. That mountain won't climb itself.. The rut your in won't magically disappear.. Those that honestly believe that if they close their eyes.. It'll all just go away... Are sadly misguided..

Stop making excuses.. Knuckle up.. Keep climbing.. Reclaim yourself.. Continue to grow.. Find yourself.. Re-invent if you must.. But uncloak yourself.. NOW.. before its to late..

As Always... Knock Hard... Life is Deaf...

It's Been Awhile

Rotherhithe Thames Tunnel - Walking back towar...Image by webponce via Flickr

But don't fret.. Don't efface this blog.. Or yourself.. It's... I'm... Still here.. Guess its about time to get back on track.. It seems like my content is falling on deaf ears these days.. Well if this is the case.. To bad I guess.. I shall continue to open my thoughts.. my mindset.. and emanate as usual... Your dedication to self motivation may continue to be diaphanous.. But not mine.. Rest assured.. I'm still agog.. My expectations are still Brobdingnagian.. Is it that the mental jactation is difficult to follow??? Does the blog strike you as to augural?? Is it to quaggy or do i come across as to harsh?? I'm sure some of you may see a hint of anacoluthia.. It's the style I felt would keep attention.. A different take from the typical reading you'll be doing.. Do yourself a favor and pay attention.. join in the conversation.. Don't live to rue the day that you've lost the will to strive.. to aspire.. to influence.. to think out loud..

If so.. Please remember where you are at... This is manic.. it's in the title.. And I'm not joking... Real content.. real thoughts.. real hope.. real aspiration.. For you.. For me..

And on that note.. There is a new "tool" for the readers to use.. A dictionary widget.. So if you stumble across a word that evades you at the moment, you can keep on track.. Because, as you know, I throw the occasional big word.. just to keep you guys on your toes...

Also note the other changes.. ReCareered blog for those interested at an HR insider perspective.. Has "insider" hints and tips for the job seeker... Hyperbole and a Half blog for a unique brand of humor.. Crappy art and well crafted funny story lines lead to enjoyably absurd comic bits..  Both are interesting sites and worth checking out.. They don't know me.. Never heard from me.. But are well worth checking them out..

Knock.. Knock.. Kid.. I'm here...

As always... Knock Hard... Life is Deaf... 
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Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Navigating The Storm...

Rembrandt's The Storm on the Sea of Galilee, s...Image via Wikipedia

Things in this life are never certain. The choices we make are truly our own. The end result is usually out of your control. These are simply facts… Like it or not we must accept that.. But just because it is that way, doesn’t mean you have to leave your life to chance…

Everyone has heard the old adage… You get what you put into this life… It’s a simple saying.. Just a filler for a conversation.. Or an observation.. Much like that of the adage… Everything happens for a reason… In this life, is this true?? I’ll leave that one up to you…

So where is this leading? Nowhere quick… Unfortunately there is no guide to life…Or fortunately if you like to options at your disposal.. Its hard to wrap your head around the bigger questions in life.. And at times its even harder to comprehend the small ones from time to time… Inevitably we all face times in which we are just…. Lost..

This ocean is a fickle one… The tides seem to shift on a whim… It’s maddening.. It’s enjoyable… It’s every emotion ever conceived.. And then some… It’s a ride… At times your riding high.. Everything is within sight.. At other times the undertow pulls you down.. To the darkest regions of your mind.. It is a struggle that repeats with time…

The life line your searching for may come as a surprise.. Or not at all.. It really seems like all is left to chance… But is it? Isn’t the great thing about life in general.. Is that at any given moment you can take action.. Since there is no set path, one can make their own… It just takes conviction.. A will to press onward.. I know that things are just overbearing.. Atlas isn’t the only one holding the weight of the world on his shoulders.. But.. This is what makes this life so great.. The harder it is.. The sweeter the reward..

As I’ve said before… The actions we take directly influence our outcomes.. Every little thing has a tendency to shape you.. The mind is likely the most treacherous battlefield on the planet.. It has a way of undermining you.. You blinding you… Of uplifting you… And controlling you… I know this are things you guys already know… And I know that sorting all of the things flying around on this battlefield is no easy task….

But isn’t this chaos something we have a subconscious need for? Isn’t what you use to base our actions off of? This unbridled chaos is what leads to creativity, bold moves, sets plans in action, solves our problems, and creates some new ones.. For those that love the drama this life always seems to lie before us…

To truly understand oneself.. If this is even possible.. You know how to cope with this.. Everyone seems to do it.. And we all seem to have our own ways of doing it.. I’ve covered this already though…

Just remember that no matter chaotic the storm… No matter which way the tide turns… You still have some form of control.. And in some strange sense.. It can be rather enjoyable.. As this is what makes us human…

As Always... Knock Hard... Life is Deaf...
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Monday, September 13, 2010


MaskImage by wokka via Flickr

Let's shed a little light on the darker side of the Manic Genius Syndrome... A little insight to one of my key motivators... I've spent a large chunk of my life shifting from one place to another... Never spending a great deal of time in any particular place.. The one constant has been the need to make somewhat of an impact.. No matter how small.. On those around me.. I've met thousands of people over the years.. I've learned a great deal from this.. I've learned that some of the best people I'll ever know, some of the best times I've ever had... Are only for a moment...

Now this seems all good.. But its left me with a unique phobia of sorts.. I don't really know how to explain it.. But I'll try.. The moment I begin to settle.. And become like those around me.. I lose myself.. I'll grow content.. And by now we know this isn't me.. I'm afraid I'll become faceless.. Just another face in the crowd.. My inhibitions.. My drive.. My personality.. My essence.. All run together..

Now luckily I've been able to use this to my advantage.. And I know it's a strange thing to fear.. But it is extremely true.. It's not really a form of vanity.. In my eyes.. But that wouldn't be a stretch from me...

But in short, its one of the reasons I constantly strive.. To grow content and stop pushing forward will lead to becoming faceless in the world.. 1 of the faceless billions.. Now don't take this the wrong way or anything.. I'm not implying that those who chose to settle down in a town.. And make a life for themselves immediately are faceless.. Its actually quite the opposite.. I envy the fact that people are well known in their towns.. Its something I've never got to truly experience.. And to be honest.. After being so used to the gypsy pace of my chronic moving.. I've embraced that part of me.. It has molded me into who I am today.. And I wouldn't trade that for the world..

Just like everyone else I have my phobias.. My motivators.. And this is one of them.. I can't honestly write all of this stuff and be content with sitting on the sidelines.. And I will keep pushing forward.. No matter what the road ahead has in store for me... I owe it myself.. I've been on this road a long time now... And its rarely been easy.. If ever.. But that's what makes it inspiring.. The stories, the good times, the memories, the friends, the experiences.. both good and bad.. I've been fortunate enough to travel this far.. To see what I've seen.. To see high life... To struggle to survive.. To live, love, laugh, learn every step of the way.. And its far from over.. I just have to remind myself from time to time..

As of late the pace of things has started to slow down.. Which if you know me.. Isn't an easy thing for me to cope with.. And I start to feel like I'm becoming faceless.. I anticipated this.. Hence this blog was created in the first place.. But as usual.. It just motivates me again...

So there you have it... Anyone else have one of those unique phobias?? Does anyone else have the same motivator?? If so feel free to share..

As always... Knock Hard... Life is Deaf...

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Sunday, September 12, 2010

The Symposium Is Online

Light bulbImage by Jago Pauwels via Flickr

Ladies and gentlemen.. I’m proud to present the Manic Genius Syndrome Symposium! So, Get some conversation started! Topics can include anything you like.. The syndrome doesn't have to be serious all the time.. Drop me a line for topics you'd like to discuss.. And moderator spots are available for those of you are truely "Manic Genii"..

This combined with the Manic Search Tool.. Shows that the site is coming a long way.. In such a short time.. We’re growing daily.. Hard to believe its only been a couple of weeks!

The site will continue to get better… Please feel free to make suggestions… Remember this is all about people.. The drive to do more.. Not a single person.. But everyone.. With their own take.. So take a little initiative.. Join in the conversation!

I’m excited with this so far.. I hope you are too..

As Always… Knock Hard… Life is Deaf…
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Manic Genius Search Tool

Why waste your time searching, shifting for your information? You shouldn’t.. So I’d like to introduce a new feature to the Manic Genius Syndrome site… The Manic Genius Search Tool… It’s located at the top of the homepage… It works just like the Google Search Bar found on google.com.. But there is one added advantage to you.. Once your search query is entered, the results will search all of the great links located on the left of the page… It will cut out the riff raff for you.. But if you want, it will even search the Web for you as well.. Just like on the tab to sort your search...

Stay tuned for more updates to the site.. Numerous ideas are being processed... If you have any suggestions feel free to share..

As Always... Knock Hard... Life is Deaf...

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Social Networking and Virtual Goods

Your only limited to what you all to limit you. I just saw a commercial for a movie about social networking.. Same title.. And as you may already know, it is about Facebook… That loveable website the masses use daily. Well what have we learned from social networking?

People love to be entertained. Lets take the Facebook games for example. Are you aware of the fact that millions are earned by games like Mafia Wars, Farmville, and the like… Its called virtual goods.. The industry generates millions of dollars.. Think about it.. You pay for something that does not physically exist.. Does this sound foolish? Perhaps on a consumer standpoint.. But it is a rather genius business model.. Micro-purchases make the virtual goods market. Consumers make small payments to get to “whatever they need” to reach their next objective quicker.. This strategy, according to Think Equity a research firm in San Francisco, will generate nearly $2+ billion this year… with projections of steady growth continuing to rise next year.

Advertising is literally everywhere. We love our groups, our brands, and easy access. So social networking has taken approaches to make that even easier.. It comes to you.. Google AdWords brings it to blogs, websites, etc… And from a money making stance.. Google Adsense... You can make a buck doing almost anything.. Your clients are easily reached this day and age..

Ease to create and distribute. Social networking accounts are easy to create. It only takes a couple of minutes to design full blown websites, blogs, and user accounts on popular social networking sites.. And best of all they can be referenced to each other if you desire to do so..

Look consumers are out there for the poaching. If someone will spend $5 bucks to buy X amount points to achieve a virtual mission, or avatar upgrade.. They’ll buy anything.. And the best thing of all is that they run in circles.. Xbox has mastered this with its Xbox Live extras, Facebook with its games and groups.. There are even virtual lives being lived..

Now the only limit of ones grasp is by their own doing.. Some ideas take time to develop.. Others can quite literally blow up over night..

Just an interesting tidbit of information for you guys…

As Always... Knock Hard... Life is Deaf...

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Who Are You?

What defines you? Do you have the answer yet? An old friend shared a gem of wisdom on Labor Day.. That work is who you are; not what you do to earn a living...

Now I'm a firm believer in that the Renaissance Man isn’t dead... The thought of people only being able to excel in one arena is laughable... But how do you know which of your talents, passions, or dreams should take the lead role? Have you found yourself second guessing your career choices?

Now with the right motivating factors propelling you.. You can do anything.. Right? Hey food has to get on the table somehow… Unfortunately the answers to life’s difficult questions are not kenspeckle.. These roads are windy, dim light, and unmarked… At times it seems like your adrift in the ocean.. The compass is busted.. The stars are hidden.. And your just along for the ride..

But there lies something inside of everyone.. A talent, buried.. Hidden.. Concealed from the masses.. Or perhaps its been pampered, taught, or performed with such frequency that it has become second nature.. My point is very simple… Everyone has something unique to offer.. It could be your thought process, a particular skill, a knack for something, anything..

Most of the time, those that lack self confidence down play their own abilities.. This is something that should be avoided.. I’m not saying that you should claim to be the alpha and omega in your skill… Arrogance never helped a soul.. And won’t start working now.. It’s a slippery slope we’re all on.. Life is no fairy tale.. And we all make choices that inevitably go against ones own vested interest.. But that’s how you learn…

Back to the renaissance man topic… How many of you find yourself drawn to multiple industries, topics, etc? How many go the extra mile and actively pursue something in multiple fields? I admire the people that work a full time job and still go to college classes and some even raise families to boot! I love the fact that people work in one particular field and find the time to write blogs, books, memoirs, poems, etc… I admire those of you who work to put food on the table and still dare to chase the dream. Be it playing music, writing, photography, etc..

But that still leaves us with that gem of wisdom.. work is who you are; not what you do to earn a living... This was re-interated to me last night.. it has stuck with me all day.. It's so true.. You must do what you love to do.. Not what you don't.. I understand that it can take time to develop into what you may want to do.. But then again that comes down to the factors a person prioritizes their objectives by.. And honestly this journey we're on would be dull if it wasn't for the conflicts we face from time to time..

So I ask again.. What defines you? Do you still have the same answer? If your wanting to answer the question immediately with another question of your own.. your answer is simply no.. So in short, do what you love for a living. Do what you love period.. for free if you must.. You all have talents.. find them.. share them.. You'll be satified in the end..

Now for a moment of zen.. compliments of my new assistant.. Zemanta.. mad props to blogger..

The Renaissance ManImage by Storm Crypt via Flickr

As always... Knock Hard.. Life is Deaf...

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Tuesday, September 7, 2010

The Journey of One and The Hope of Many

We may not chose the outcome. We may not have control on the path we take. We may not see clearly through the chaos we find ourselves in… Our actions will dictate all of the above..

A simple want.. For my cousin David.. I want…

For him to show me what a person can do.. To restore my belief that people can overcome the hardest of obstacles with determination.. To prove that no matter what is happening now, that a person can make difference in not only their own life, but those around them..

And he is doing that.. and will continue to do so..

So continue to knuckle up.. push forward.. and not to give up...

I really feel like he is the focal point for so many right now.. he's not alone.. and people are counting on him, more than he is on them.. at least on a pseudo-emotional stance..

And he can renew everyone during his journey with his actions.. bravery is bold.. determination is key.. and his story will affect so many.. not just now.. but years down the road.. a simple accident.. opens the door to so many.. his journey is hard.. long.. but is not in vain..

This path is not limited to just him.. But all of us.. We decide what impact we have on our surroundings and those that we come into contact with in our lives.. You play a vital role in it all… even if you realize it or not.. Its true my friends, very true..

Just like I’ve said time and time again.. How this all plays out is up to you.. Do with it what you will.. Don’t let the bad times bring you down.. Turn it around.. Take your moment of weakness and turn it into a showing of your TRUE strength…

Lets put this into another perspective.. When your stressed over a timeline, daily drama.. Or other “trivial” matters.. And decide to say I give up.. Think about how you would feel if say one of your troops decided to give up, when everything was on the line.. Or a relative or friend that decided to give in to defeat from illness.. Lance Armstrong if he decided to sit on the couch instead of climbing on that bike.. Your favorite athlete decided to take a play or even game off… It lets you down.. But when that same person is faced with an overwhelming challenge.. And knuckles up.. Presses forward.. Carries the team, the family.. A nation.. You feel differently.. Is it because their superhuman? No.. They have that determination.. They have a reason to keep pushing.. Many people are never faced with those conditions.. Not to that extreme.. And perhaps that is why those stories are so inspiring.. So don’t let those that look up to you, down by giving up.. Ever..

Is your character as strong as those listed above? Continue to be inspired by those around you.. Pay it forward.. Listen, watch, interact.. Or your going to regret it…

I truly hope this message doesn’t fall onto deaf ears….

As always.. Knock Hard.. Life is Deaf…

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Freefalling Through Life

You go to high school.. Then you either get a job, join the military, or go to college.. Quite simple right? Well as any adult will tell you.. Wrong.. It’s a complex world out there.. There is no black and white guideline for you to follow.. It feels like your on top of the world at graduation day.. Then quickly realize that your actually freefalling.. Life comes at you hard.. It’s not as easy as you thought it would be.. But that’s no excuse for just wildly falling down.. Away from what you want to do, what you can do.. You just need to turn it into a controlled freefall.. To align yourself with what you actually want.. Then actually you’ll start climbing back up…

Look we all know the daily grind right? Well if not here is a quick recap of some of the very basic highlights for you… Bills are not a joke.. Your credit score defines you.. Your skills will open or close the doors to dreams.. Determination makes achieving happen.. Work is a necessity not an option.. Well if your not from a trust fund situation that is..

Okay are you caught up? Good.. We have covered the extreme basics of what you will need to succeed.. And chances are that if your reading this article, who know all of the above.. And you know what I’m trying to spill right? Perhaps.. Perhaps not..

Do you know that overwhelming chaos that seems to push you down the mountain of life? It has to push you down, because its that helpless feeling when you have no idea what to do.. And many people stall out.. Just continue to fall down this proverbial mountain.. But not you guys.. Not if you read this blog.. We’re not about that..

What makes us manic? What makes us different from all of the others? We simply refuse to let it stop us dead in our tracks.. But if you find yourself at a crossroad.. That impassable impasse.. I’m going to give you a checklist of resources to help guide you.. If your about to graduate high school, college or transition from the military this basic checklist should cover the basic necessities in which your about to face…

Life (Food, Clothing, Rent/Buy Home)

Go to the deals section of this site..

Boys and girls remember that food, clothing, car, and your home are not cheap.. Budget accordingly.. If you are completely consumed with partying, or shopping.. Budget accordingly.. Be prepared for a lifestyle shift.. So many people shoot for the I want it all mentality and screw up their opportunities due to this.. Trust me.. The more prepared you are the “easier” the challenges in this life will be… And please try not to live on loans..

Worried about some of those bills?

Check out the Online TV and Movies Section and this article

Resume (Tips and pointers)

Check out this article

Work (BLS.gov, Employment Links)

I seriously hope you’ve already scoped some of these sites out.. If not check out the employment resources section..

Military Options

There is help for the veterans and active members out there.. You should of heard about this by now.. But if not here you go..

USAA - insurance, banking, and financial advice..

Military Job Placement Firms - Do a keyword search scout them out.. My favorite is Bradley Morris. There are several to browse and talk to.. They offer you a more options, and the benefit of actually using and expanding on the talents you've aquired from your military service!

Self Start (SBA, etc)

Okay for those wanting to shoot for stars now check out the business section..


Know what you want to do? Read this article.


Talk to your family, friends, and run some calculations.. This is solely up to you.. But for some number crunching help check out the calculators section..

So know I hope you can see one of the many, many ways you can utilize this blog to your advantage.. Its about inspiring you to propel up that mountain.. To give this life a real go.. To achieve what you have set out to achieve.. And of course to provide a helping hand along the way.. I’m not here to waste your time with lackluster personal details.. But value added resources, insight, and well whatever else you may draw from this.. I’m sure more detailed coverage on the above topics will be covered thoroughly in the future..

As always.. Knock Hard.. Life is Deaf..